It's been a while since I've managed to do my regular run, so maybe that's why today felt so special, or maybe it was the light which seemed magical and full of promise, or maybe I was simply just ready to listen to what I needed to hear...
As I ran, I reflected on the last five years and thought of the times when I felt like I was overflowing with happiness. I thought about the times I felt that my beloved little cottage was bursting at the seams with all the lovely things I had bought and with the happy memories I was creating there...and then I reflected on the time when I felt like the pitcher of my life was almost empty, but for some dregs of stagnant water.
I rounded a corner and saw a glorious view; the mist lifting off the fields, dew glistening like diamonds on every leaf in the hedgerows and ruby red rose hips punctuating the whole scene in a brilliant flash of colour. It was in that moment that I realised that the pitcher of my life has been power cleaned and descaled by the reality of living over the past year or so.
I feel ready to once again be filled to overflowing and then emptied so that more can be poured into me from the infinite source of life. I want to keep the waters flowing and alive. I recognise that I need to be aware of my capacity; it's only through being fully emptied every now and then, that we can realise just what space we have within us...and maybe, just like the universe itself, we are ever expanding.
Before I arrived home, I ran through a field that until a month ago had been a golden wave of barley. It was now empty, a vast muddy vista; my sneakers were like divers boots, weighted down by clods of rich, claggy mud.
Change is the only certainty in life and just like a good farmer I want to embrace the circle of living; I will reap and I will sow and I will allow the crops to grow. I am no longer going to question whether or not the crop is growing by constantly digging it up to see how it is doing; I simply have to trust...
And maybe, most importantly, I need to accept that sometimes I just have to leave the ground be; to allow it to go fallow so that the soil can rebalance and become fertile once again.
Change is the only certainty in life and just like a good farmer I want to embrace the circle of living; I will reap and I will sow and I will allow the crops to grow. I am no longer going to question whether or not the crop is growing by constantly digging it up to see how it is doing; I simply have to trust...
And maybe, most importantly, I need to accept that sometimes I just have to leave the ground be; to allow it to go fallow so that the soil can rebalance and become fertile once again.
Thank you run and nature for the insights
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